That was me singing, after being locked outside my blog all weekend. AlisonBarber.com was HACKED and I am not the least bit FLATTERED. I mean, the hackers didn’t even sign my guest book or leave a little note with a smiley face telling me how comfortable their stay was, how cozy. But what can I expect? I am playing on the internet after all, and it’s a vast playground. I am bound to come across some unwanted visitors every now and then.
Of course at the time, I was ready to shut-down shop. Never blog again. Partly because I am an ape when it comes to deciphering computer code, which was required in order to gain access to my site again, and partly because in the wake of the writing competition my sis, author Brittany Smith was in last week, I wasn’t sure I wanted to open up a dialog on the internet again.
If anyone was following the competition, which is evidently called a “Deathmatch”, the meat and potatoes of it is: two authors go story-to-story on the internet and the world wide web can read their stories and vote which story they prefer and opt to make a breezy comment or question. Okay, I added the breezy part, in actuality, the comments were down right torrential.
I mean, I know it was all apart of the game, it is called a DEATHMATCH for pete’s sake, as every busy-body chimed in with their jaded and most times, hurtful opinions. “It’s just for fun”, John would remind me as I went to the computer, white-knuckled, to read what new awful thing was said about my sister. But as the dialog grew to uncomfortable lengths and stopped being about the work, I wasn’t having any fun.
So I started thinking about what am I even doing here on my blog? Have I created an environment where I am one of those busy bodies trying to TELL you how to live your life? Am I stating my opinion of things to be RIGHT in the bigger picture? Because I must be honest, I think opinions are bs. Usually at the core of the opinion, the is person just trying to justify own their actions or beliefs. It never is about you. Because there is NO WAY anyone could have any idea what is going on in your head, in your heart, in your life. How could we know what is right or best for you?
Be weary when some one tries to TELL you something.
No, what I hope I’m doing here, and why I’ve come back to blog, is to create an environment where I SHARE what’s going on in my life and hope you might get a kick out of it, maybe it’ll inspire you, maybe it won’t. Maybe you’ll want to SHARE you’re own stuff. Because I am a huge advocate for SHARING, that’s why I do what I do. Through sharing we can grow as individuals. But it’s learning to take what is offered as a gift, and then decide whether or not you want to keep it, whether or not it is right for YOU. I like to practice this by using my best Audrey Hepburn voice and saying, very nobly, “Thank you. Noooo, thank you”.
Britt won that leg of the race by the goods in her writing and the goods in her heart.